sleeplessness

when you try your best, but you don't succeed...
when you get what you want, but not what you need...
when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep...
stuck in reverse...

it's late and i'm awake. once again, thoughts consume my mind. i'm not where i'm supposed to be. something is incredibly wrong. headaches and dizzyness have consumed my days.. yet they can't find anything to be wrong with me. i guess it's just another thing i will have to live with.

nine days til my birthday. guess i'm just not so excited, don't really no why.. birthdays are supposed to be fun. my grandparents are coming to see me. i'm happy about that. i miss them a whole lot. i'm rambling... so i guess i'm out...