happy or sad, time passes anyway

"i’m not going to stress over you anymore. it isn’t worth it. i tried to work something out, but you just ignored it. i'm not trying to say I don’t want you because I definitely do. all I’m saying is I’m done chasing after you."

"and i keep going back to the one thing i need to get away from."

"you should never forget about the past, everything happens for a reason. instead learn from the past, learn from your mistakes, and learn from every experience in life. never forget those that have changed you either for the good or the bad because they have made you who you are. and always remember that life is meant to be tough, to challenge you, and to make you stronger."

"there is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that's thrown at them. we aren't made that way. In fact, we're made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. we aren't suppose to be able to handle everything. but that's what makes us stronger in the end, by learning from the things that hurt us the most."

"you have to get hurt. that's how you learn. the strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. because they've decided that they're not going to let anything hold them down, they're moving on."

trying to break the cycle.

... losing hope is easy, when you only friend is gone...
frustration comes so easy with us. anger. shame. hurt. still going through the same old cycle it seems: day in, day out... up and down, riding that crazy roller coaster. nothing changes... but i hang on and give it everything i've got, because that's who i am. i cannot be that person anymore. i need to start focusing on me. i need to change. i need to do it for me. life is too short and there are so many important things that i don't want to lose. i do not have the time nor the energy to give 100% of myself to one person. i told him that. i told him i wasn't going to be the person always running around fixing everything. it is way to hard and not fair to either of us. so this year will be different. i need to stick by my word on this one. if things work out, that's great; but if they don't, i need to be okay with that too. i need to be okay with relying on myself and trusting myself. i have lost a lot of that lately and i need to work to get it back. here's to making changes and living my life for me.