second chances

i have been thinking about a certain someone a ton lately. can't get him off my mind. i have all this built up hurt and pain from what we used to be, but i am also overwhelmed with good memories of us. i would like to try and see where things would go, but he isn't ready for that. i hurt him bad. i know that. i just wish i could make it better, make everything bad go away, but i can't and that's life. maybe someday we'll get a second chance. or maybe it's not meant to be at all. who knows in this crazy life.

down, down, down.

rolled my car... totaled.
lost my job.
hard to get out of bed.
hard to be friends.
sad.
sad.
sad.
hurt.
angry.
confused.
frustrated.
lost.
so lost.