between a rock and a hard place

up and down. up and down.
it's scary as hell, but i think i might be spinning out of control.
i feel like i have no one to turn to.
i don't want to seem like a pathetic, sad, girl.
but i feel like it's what i am becoming.
o.v.e.r.w.h.e.l.m.e.d.
why can't i pull it all together.
it's getting harder and harder to fake that smile.
s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d.
i don't think i have ever been so intensely stressed out.
why can't i find the motivation.
stop. rewind. hurt. tears. pain. torn away.
becoming the soundtrack to my life.
s.t.r.u.g.g.l.i.n.g.